Letting go

I had been thinking your thoughts
and praying your prayers
only to come to a stand still.
Did you not look at our diminished memories
and point out the layers of our differences?
Or was it too painful for you my love?
You used to dwell among the curtains of my hope
and I used to carry ashes of our unreciprocated love
with no thoughts and no prayers of my own to accompany me.
Now it's only the music of recent shameful deeds
and I cannot seem to let go off the mediocracy of it all.
No, I am not dewelling and no I am not drowning
waiting to be punished
because I cannot think of you anymore
and because I am washing my hands with other toughtless acts.
Yes I must go through the storm first to see the clear skies
and let go off what you could not.

23rd August - 19th September 2010